Just had a interhall female table-tennis match with Suen Chi Sun Hall. Since this week is the reading week, some of our better players went back home. Only four of us to play 5 games.
The schedule sort of goes like this:
1) 1st Singles
2) 2nd Singles
3) 1st Doubles
4) 2nd Doubles
5) 3rd Singles
We were hoping to sapu it 3:0 in the beginning or at the very most 4:1. I going to play in the 1st doubles and 3rd singles (if needed). To cut the story short, we lost the 2nd singles and 1st doubles, thus forcing a rubber match – 3rd singles.
I was not really expecting to play the 5th match. And even during the practice, our coach didn’t really teach me how to play singles. All along it was only doubles practice for me. So right after the 1st Doubles match, the two male players from my hall team were like giving me intensive lessons. 15 minutes of having to absorb all the tricks on how to counter top and under-spin shots, how you should play in singles, how to serve, how to determine whether the ball served is top or under-spinning etc.
If it was the old me before I came to Hong Kong, I would have totally freaked out (even though I did) right there and then and puked my guts out. I AM that much of a nervous wreck. But I really did try my best to remember everything.
The whole match ended really quickly. I don’t really remember what was the exact score. All I know is the score for the first set was like 6:11 or something.
I had a chance of winning the second set. I was leading 8:10. But no, I let her catch up 10:10 and we had to deuce. Needless to say, I lost that set as well.
The third set was the ugliest of all. 2:11 or something like that. I even served twice in a row out of bounds.
I almost cried after it ended. I hate them all saying that it’s okay and stuff. I remember hearing them chanting ’steady’, ‘concentrate’ and stuff like that.
I finally realize something. All these while, everything I do, I do it to please others (well, mostly anyways). I get upset when others expect something of me and I don’t deliver and disappoint them (this applies for even my studies). I get most upset when I don’t meet the expectations of others. I want people to be happy and proud of me but… apparently most of the time I do the opposite.
I have nothing but to say that I am terribly sorry for not being good enough. I will try harder next time.
