Funny how I tend to blog when I actually need the time to study like hell. Oh well.
It has been preparing for exams and exams all these two weeks. And I am so not in my best condition to face them. For one, I haven’t had any nap time at all since like I don’t know, the start of the semester? People who really know me knows that I nap like a pig. It helps me charge up my ‘capacitor’. But this semester, it has been almost empty if not always. I couldn’t even stay up late to burn the midnight oil even if I wanted to the past few days. My eyes were bloodshot red, I had a headache almost everynight and had to resort to Panadols (which I totally hate).
To add more to my ‘injury’, I have not been eating well all this semester. One meal per day is the norm. Two if I’m lucky. And I went through a phase where I lost my apetite for no apparent reason once or twice during the semester. To my dear DBKL-ers, I have lost my ability to gorge down food like my stomach’s a never-ending pithole. I have lost the weight which I gained since I came to Hong Kong. The only good thing about this is, my old jeans fit again.
But the consequences of not having enough nutrients? I totally feel it now. Now I understand why my mum put so much emphasis on me eating right and having enough rest all these years.
Pressure I put on myself to keep up my grades isn’t helping at all. Having to finish each subject within 2 days is impossible. I almost broke down at the exam hall for one paper coz I got stuck at 5 lines for each and every question. A friend who is ‘unwell’ worries me. My fire to do revision has been extinguished since the 2nd paper ended (and I still have two left, two back-to-back exams in two days).
Re-read what I just typed above. It’s all a mess. Exactly what my brain feels like now. It used to be fairly structured, logical and not totally random.
Even my smell senses have gone whacked. I smell KFC all of a sudden and I feel like eating it. I am so tired.
