Stretched.

Problems with the Graft

After surgery, the body attempts to develop a network of blood vessels in the new graft. This process, called revascularization, takes about 12 weeks. The graft is weakest during this time, which means it has a greater chance of stretching or rupturing. A stretched or torn graft can occur if you push yourself too hard during this period of recovery. When revascularization is complete, strength in the graft gradually builds. A second surgery may be needed to replace the graft if it is stretched or torn.

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My physiotherapist examined my knee and told me my knee did feel looser than before, but not to the extent that it is torn. However, she says I should see an orthopedic if I feel knocking the knee (which I do ) to be sure.

Sigh.

I will see the general doctor on campus this coming Wednesday, get a referral letter to Queen’s Mary Hospital.

My dear knee will have to wait until C++ and D&M projects are over.

This is killing me.

Serious Shit.

Few days ago, I slipped and landed on my butt while walking down the stairs during a rainy day. I was walking at least 2 seconds per step, but still slipped and fell.

I am 99% positive that I might either have stretched or partially tore my patella tendon graft from that fall.

My knee feels loose again, not loose as before, but significantly. When I keep it bent at 90 degrees for a long period of time, and stretch it, it doesn’t hurt anymore unlike post-op.

Basketball, the money spent on surgery, the time spent on rehab…

I just want to cry.

Update:
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The feeling of reinjuring my knee again is by far the worst feeling I have ever had in my entire life. Probabaly on par with having a break up with it. No pun intended.

Update 2:
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Most of you might be thinking ’so what, you just can’t play sports like you used to, at least you’re still able to walk’ or ‘you can go get another reconstruction if you’re that desperate lor’ or even ‘you shouldn’t do anymore sports’.

*TOUCHWOOD* Imagine a person who really loved drawing was to have his hand injured and to never regain his strength, or one who really loves going to the singing/karaoke-ing was to suddenly contract some weird-mutated-permanent laryngitis. *DOUBLE TOUCHWOOD*

You wouldn’t know what I am feeling or going through, nor do I expect you to understand. But sometimes, the words people say can be so cold.

Just Like Old Times.

I went to MK today and I bought two hamsters.

My have things changed since high school. Now there’s not only the cage, sawdust and food to get, but also bathing powder and teeth gnawing stone to buy.

One gold male and a black female. Just like my first pair of hamsters in during high school.

I hope that this would give me a sense of comfort like it did in high school.

Gold one’s called Milk Tea and the black called Coffee. Mani helped me name them. She said it’d be good names for them as hopefully they’d be able to give me some energy since I’m always tired all the time. And if they have babies, they’d produce Yin Yong’s!

Goodnight 奶茶 and 咖啡. Sleep tight.