Serious Shit.

Few days ago, I slipped and landed on my butt while walking down the stairs during a rainy day. I was walking at least 2 seconds per step, but still slipped and fell.

I am 99% positive that I might either have stretched or partially tore my patella tendon graft from that fall.

My knee feels loose again, not loose as before, but significantly. When I keep it bent at 90 degrees for a long period of time, and stretch it, it doesn’t hurt anymore unlike post-op.

Basketball, the money spent on surgery, the time spent on rehab…

I just want to cry.

Update:
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The feeling of reinjuring my knee again is by far the worst feeling I have ever had in my entire life. Probabaly on par with having a break up with it. No pun intended.

Update 2:
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Most of you might be thinking ’so what, you just can’t play sports like you used to, at least you’re still able to walk’ or ‘you can go get another reconstruction if you’re that desperate lor’ or even ‘you shouldn’t do anymore sports’.

*TOUCHWOOD* Imagine a person who really loved drawing was to have his hand injured and to never regain his strength, or one who really loves going to the singing/karaoke-ing was to suddenly contract some weird-mutated-permanent laryngitis. *DOUBLE TOUCHWOOD*

You wouldn’t know what I am feeling or going through, nor do I expect you to understand. But sometimes, the words people say can be so cold.