I switch off the phone and turn off Skype, MSN, cut off any other means of communication, and then either I take a nap or work on my projects (which somehow, surprisingly, I am able to with immense amount of concentration).
I don’t know why, but it always makes me feel a tad better.
‘Weird’ would be my middle name (if I were an ang moh that is).
Well. I am having my ‘internship’ at my department. I am following my lecturer. Supposed to learn how to use this VLAERO+ and VSAERO software in preparation for my 3rd year Design Build and Fly design project sponsored by Boeing (a total of 19 of us will handling it).
This VLAERO+ software is killing me.
400+ pages thick User’s Manual, none of the lecturers have used it before, its so rarely used that there ain’t any books at the library where I can borrow nor is there any forum which provides you with more friendly help.
I am on my own, with this book of ET-like language instructions.
Shit. And there’s some bug with this software which I had to e-mail the technical support in US on my own coz like I said before none of my lecturers have used it before. Turns out I have to download the latest version. The one that the the lab technician gave me isn’t updated. BUT, I can’t install the latest version. I don’t know why. Sigh.
And I can’t e-mail the technical support guy rightaway as I ain’t sure whether there is some special way to install it as I am sorta using this software ‘illegally’ coz my lecturer gave me the one of the very few license to it.
Gah.
I am so stuck.
Even following the tutorials is hard. I don’t know how the input data comes about and how to interpret the results. The method behind the software is just too confusing. One semester of Foundations to Aeronautics is so little, close to zilch compared to what I am about to face.
I have been spoonfed throughout my primary, secondary and even tertiary education.
It’s about time I took initiative to do what a almost-to-be-final-year-student is supposed to do .
Problems with the Graft
After surgery, the body attempts to develop a network of blood vessels in the new graft. This process, called revascularization, takes about 12 weeks. The graft is weakest during this time, which means it has a greater chance of stretching or rupturing. A stretched or torn graft can occur if you push yourself too hard during this period of recovery. When revascularization is complete, strength in the graft gradually builds. A second surgery may be needed to replace the graft if it is stretched or torn.
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My physiotherapist examined my knee and told me my knee did feel looser than before, but not to the extent that it is torn. However, she says I should see an orthopedic if I feel knocking the knee (which I do ) to be sure.
Sigh.
I will see the general doctor on campus this coming Wednesday, get a referral letter to Queen’s Mary Hospital.
My dear knee will have to wait until C++ and D&M projects are over.
This is killing me.
I went to MK today and I bought two hamsters.
My have things changed since high school. Now there’s not only the cage, sawdust and food to get, but also bathing powder and teeth gnawing stone to buy.
One gold male and a black female. Just like my first pair of hamsters in during high school.
I hope that this would give me a sense of comfort like it did in high school.
Gold one’s called Milk Tea and the black called Coffee. Mani helped me name them. She said it’d be good names for them as hopefully they’d be able to give me some energy since I’m always tired all the time. And if they have babies, they’d produce Yin Yong’s! 
Goodnight 奶茶 and 咖啡. Sleep tight.
Sigh.
I had my MRI scan back in KL and I did indeed tore my ACL. The doctor’s advise was – if I did not mind not playing any more basketball in the future, I can just let it be. But if I want to, I’d have to get the ACL reconstruction surgery as (even I myself feel it) won’t be able to perform if I don’t.
At first I relished the thought of getting sliced open. An open wound, doctor poking at my knee (from a Youtube video), stitches, crutches etc. But that was when I thought the interhall competition would be in the first semester as if I’m going to have the surgery, it’d be in December. So, I’ll get to secretly play before having to recover for a few months.
But oh no. Apparently, the interhall competition is in the 2nd semester! Which means I won’t get to play as I don’t have any other time to do the surgery other than Dec. Summer won’t do as I’ll have my internship.I really felt like crying when I knew that it’d be in the 2nd sem. I’ll get only one last chance to play an actual match which is during my 3rd year (that is if I don’t get kicked out of my hall) before beginning my (most probably boring) working life or whatever may come.
Being obssesed with something ain’t good at all. I wish I weren’t.
OH
MY
GOD!
I think someone will have to chain me to the plane to get me back to Hong Kong when I need to leave KL again. There are so many awesome movies coming out next year! Oh bugger. I can’t BT and the cinema tickets here in Hong Kong costs a bomb. Like, for the price of one watch here, you can watch like 3-4 times back in GSC or Cathay Cineplex. ARGH!
Exams starting tomorrow. I’m SO screwed. Bwahaha.
Oh god. I am so going to screw up my exams again. 5 more days and I haven’t even started on my Fundamentals of Electronics. SHIT! I am so bloody doomed. I am having trouble with Statics and Dynamics. ARGH! It’s deja vu all over again. Whine and whine every time exams come but never will I learn my lesson to not procrastinate. BAH! Hopeless.
But then again, on the bright side, I’ll be getting to fly back to KL soon! Oh yea! I’m so happy but freaking scared at the same time coz I can imagine all of my relatives going like ‘Oh CUIXIA…. YOU’VE PUT ON WEIGHT LAAAA! Must be the good food there!!’ WTF! Dieting will never work for me. I just ordered pizza with my roommate. Sigh.
Anyways, I am so hooked on to this song! 石康軍’s 火光 I know I’m outdated but this song rocks! Been putting it on repeat like since yesterday after Daphne introduced it to me! It’s nice to finally hear some Mandarin Brit pop.
知道很傻 還是盼望 妳會出現 送我出發
手機沒響 揹起夢想
一轉過身 眷戀更深
明天 孤單會是脆弱或力量
想念 會解答﹏
沒月亮 的海上 妳是我 的火光
找到逆風破浪 的堅強
愛能到的地方 都不算 是遠方
我不怕﹏
有了牽掛 容易迷惘 妳用消失 讓我遺忘
我猜我懂 妳的想法 有些深愛 叫做隱藏
我們掉的淚是感動或感傷
時間 會說話﹏
回頭望 的淚眶 有最亮 的火光 選擇離開或許最恰當
妳的愛 放心上 隨時都 能出發 到遠方
我不怕﹏
回頭望 的淚眶 有最亮 的火光 選擇離開或許最恰當
妳的愛 放心上 隨時都 能出發 到遠方
我不怕﹏
妳的愛 放心上 隨時都 能出發 到遠方
我不怕﹏
STUDY YOU FREAKING OSTRICH aka. PRAWN!
ASSY!
One of the best days I’ve had since I came to Hong Kong! (Apart from that Malaysians in HK gathering lar.. That was freaking awesome too! Good fun and laughter! So looking forward to the next one! XD) Anyways, yea, was a helper for the HKU Singing Contest which I freaking hell don’t know why everyone kept asking me whether I was singing. HELPER for god’s sake! Never will I participate in a singing contest, god forbid! God will come down and kill me him/herself if I did.
You know who you are.
*faints!*
It’s really amazing just how these few people managed to get everything together! Sponsors, judges, PA peeps, venues, tickets, make up artists, publications, most importantly $$! Man, you seriously gotta salute HK ppl! Dang. Like Markus from Aiesec who went to Malaysia for an exchange says, we Malaysians like to take things slow. :-p Cannot cannot! Must change! Turbo booster!
Ahhhhhhh! Better get back to f**king ECEN which is dued like in an FREAKING HOUR AND 44 MINUTES! (Forgive me for swearing as I have not been getting enough sleep since I don’t know when).
Love you guys back in Malaysia! And HKU Singing Contest GOOD SHOW! Oh yea!
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